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| This is me... possibly an example of probable stress-induced brain explosion.... (not really though) |
Ive come to realize that I think my husband doesnt do enough for me as far as Im concerned.
He gets to go off to work all day and Im here with Harper. When he calls during the day Im usually stressed and get upset when he has nothing "of substance" to talk about. Anger begins. Next, he gets home from work and Im trying to get "his" dinner ready... he bee-bops in... gets to do his own thing for awhile... Im already frustrated that Im putting forth effort in cooking and he' had a pretty non-stressful day! Anger grows.
As the night progresses it just builds. I think I do everything around the house. I think I do everything for Harper... I think.... I think... basically... ME ME MEEE!!! This is sooo terrible! By the next morning Im still angry... Ive gotten up with Harper while Brad has been sleeping... and now Im so angry Im snapping his head off! So sad... (Im REALLY NOT this bad of a person...ha!)
Well, this morning, Brad reminded me of something to do and I had a smallish of anger explosions!
As he does sometimes, he gently reminded me to calm down and that I probably would be calling him later on to ask for forgiveness.... which made me even more upset!
After Brad left for work I started letting the steam seep out of my brain and began thinking about it all.
Yes, Im a new mom, and yes, things wont go my way. Brad DOES help so much around the house and he is very willing to help me with Harper... he's great at changing those dirty diapers. He even puts her down for the night which I love so I can get a few moments to myself.
I came to realize how selfish and prideful I had become. I could let it control me and my day... which is NOT good. I decided to ask God for forgiveness... and even though I dont want to... again, pride... I probably WILL be calling Brad sometime soon to ask him to forgive me.
2 comments:
This is a hard time and adjusting to life as a new mom sure isn't easy. Just remember that it is okay to have moments of frustration and anger, but as you said, not let them consume you. Also, Brad is not 'helping' you with Harper, he is taking care of his child, there is a big difference. Take care of yourself!
Forgot in my earlier post to mention that you better add 'good friend' to the description of yourself at the top of your blog! :)
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